A long-forgotten blog..mine;-)

The sun is shining and my heart is singing..It's autumn at its best and I am happy. So happy and sad that I hardly find time to log in and share the fast-running thoughts, the amazing moments and the sleepless nights. It is a strange time for me...My life has never had more meaning and it's never been so disorganised at the same time. The days pass by so quickly, my head is somewhere in the clouds and I hardly manage to realise what is happening.

It is a time of new beginnings and old memories. Memories which never die, love that is so strong that I will never forget. Love and a face so familiar that just a sight of it over the net gives me so much hope and strength. Because you are my freedom, you are my support and energy. And I have to learn to live without. God, trust me, I want to have you in my life forever. I keep on thinking of you, of all my dreams and lost hopes. I have new hopes now, always trying to rise from the ashes, to jump on the boat again, as the water is running so, so fast and I am scared that I will drown.

I am on that boat again, the boat of hope and love, the boat of laughter and dreams. And it feels amazing. But how so tiring it is to jump on new boats, to open your heart again and again, and to trust. Can I trust you? My tenderness and naivete, my love is there for you, and I can only hope.

So, so many thoughts, so many days gone into one, into one dream and you. Be with me and make me believe once again...Love!